Oh Kira, this really hit me.

Powerful read here.

I've so often felt that I'm not allowed to want motherhood. I constantly get messages that I shouldn't want to be a Mom, but I do.

I wish you the best in this journey.

So much of this resonated with me. I am an autistic woman, who now has a baby, after multiple IUI's and sperm donation. I feel so incredibly grateful for what I have. It's pure luck that it worked for me. I hope it works out for you too Kira. Regardless, thank you for this honest expose of what you are going through. I hope more people hear it. I feel like you've give voice to a part of me no one hears.