I’m poly. For whatever reason, I’m just happier when poly.
When I first started dating my current gf, I realized I needed to be poly.
She wasn’t that comfortable at first-but was willing to give it a shot.
Ironically, I haven’t really felt like dating anyone (just had a baby, major libido killer). We’re now in a situation where she has other partners, and I don’t, and I couldn’t be happier.
It’s interesting, for me poly isn’t necessarily about me needed partners.
But I feel happier knowing she has more than me.
I feel a great deal of compersion, a word I never heard of before being poly. When she comes back from a date, I somehow feel closer to her, or happier, like more complete myself. And the pressure to be a perfect partner is gone.
I love seeing her happy, feeling desired, and feeling loved. It makes me feel closer to her. It feels like a relationship refresher-just like I can almost see her from someone else eyes. Also I love how happy she looks. Of course it helps that her other partners are really nice people that I feel really comfortable with-she obvious has good taste, she picked me after all.
It’s strange, this isn’t the love narrative I was raised with, but it fits me. At some point I may chose to date, but right now I’m just super happy watching her glow up. It’s just so weird, I was raised to believe this was so wrong, but it honestly just makes me happy. IDK.