I have to say, I was christian for over 20 years, and I eventually left partially due to the martyr mentality I often ran into. The entire hero, Jesus is an actual martyr. I personally found that having role model who was a martyr was not what I needed in my life. No offense to christians, it's a fine religion and I know millions of people benefit from it. I just found the martyr hero wasn't serving me well as a person.