I can so relate to your struggle. I just recently was diagnosed with ADHD, at age 39. I am currently also in the midst of an autism assessment. I beleive also I may have dyspraxia and dyslexia, and have other nuerodiverities I need to be evaluated for.

Taking medication has been such an experience, I cry around it. Not at all the "lost time" but just how lonely it's been having this experience that others don't understand.

As you said, of course I was going to be depressed and anxious because of this. I mean I struggle to do just basic things that so many take for granite, without much support. So many things seem to easy for others, they just take if for granite it's easy for me too, It's painful to realize how alone and isolated my experience is.

It feels like I've been gaslit my entire life, and knowing these things about myself, feel like finally an acknowledgement of who I am and what I've been through and these major things that have so present in my life, but ignored and disregarded by the world.

Thanks for writing your piece!